Wednesday, October 26, 2005 - ARgh!!!!! Wat A DAy! :
today i went to skool fer the secondary school visit to my school..
became tha mentor fer tha day..
never attend yesterday's one cos i was really sick.
it was quite boring..cos i wasn't in tha mood to be happy.
yeha.
heex.
aniwae..
today..many stories was about nizam.again.
ya...after the mentoring thing that ended at like 12..
we went to chill at tha clubroom..
talked with khai and kamal..and nut.
about nizam.and about guys.
yeah..they did give me advices.
thanks to them.
after that..we went to causewaypoint to break fast at long john's silver..
they made me happy.
ya..on the outside yes i am happy.
but not on the inside..
we went jalan2 at bazar raye ..
faris (ex nvss) werking there..
jual burger...hehe!
ok..
all the way iw as talking bout nizam and my relationship with him..
we went honme at about 9..
went home with kamal..
khai and nut went their own ways..
different busses..
k so..anyway..
kamal accompanied me till i board tha 806 bus..
upon reaching home..i quickly switched on tha.miss it so many.
one whole day tak on sei.
eheh!
except fer this morning lah..after sahur..
ya..talked to wak(mecha)yang vespa hijau tu..idah..and caca..
talked to wak and yes..he gave me a very good advice..
he asked me why i liked nizam so much..wats so good bout him..
then i say he respect my parents..then he sad, ya..itu memang biase..but the most omportant thing is to see his surroundings at home..meaning..how is he at home..does he respect his own folks before he respect other's..
yeah..i admit..sumtimes he's quite rude to his mum..i cant deny that.
but nemy..that's he and his family's problem..
i cant say aniting..
k..ya btw..
idah toldme sumthing that really shocked me..
it make me really feel CHEATED!
wow!! all this 7 months ++ is like ..haiz..dunno how to say..
so means..watever he did fer me sumer tak ikhlas.rabaq sei..
u nape buat i gini u..
kenpae main2 kan i...?
ape sasalh i..?
u sholdnt have accepted me as a girlfriend dat day..030305.
u make me lke a fool...
oh ya..idah told me that he actuallyalready loiked zahrah fer like 2 years oredi..
astrghfirullahhalazim..
ape nie.
ape sume nie.?
ape maksudnyer..??
u buat i gini..u ingat u tak kene baleq ke mcm gini..?
u will feel how i felt ok nizam..
but i hope u wont.
nina tak nak u hidup mcm i..
ya..now i like dun have he trust in guys..
except fer my dad of course..
i have this feeling taht he wont come back to me..
not anymore..
biarlah..
i dun lose anithing in losing him anywayy..it wasnt me who left him..it's alright..
i must always remember have my family will always love me..
and my friends too.
dunno what else to say..
right now..my feelings towards guys is no more..
i still love him.
but kalau dah dgr mcm2 cerite pasal de..
mcm benci de pun ade..
Eheh!
gasak u lah nizam..its fine wit me..
i cume tak nak u main2 kan hati perempuan lain aje.
i du wan them to feel the way i felt.
appreciate those ppl who love you.
ok dear?
will always remember u..
my love fer a guy fer 3 years will always be in my mind..
i hope i'll recover
as soon as possible..
i dowan my heart to keep loving someone who doesnt appreciate my love.
yes that's it.
though it'd take me quite a little long time to heal my broken heart..
i'll always remiond myself that i can live on my own withot u by my side.
sepanjang perhubungan kite pun selame nie..
bile nina fikir2 baleq..
ya its true..
u selalu kutuk2 i..
tak penah nak accept me fer who i am..
ape yang u tunjukkan i selame hanyalah kepura-puraan semate2..
just to make me smile.
but i tak akan lupe kan perhubungan kite ini.
i thank u fer the love that u showered me with.
hati yang u lukai tidak akan i lupekan.
this relationship.and my past relationship have taught me something..
something which is so much.
it makes me more mature..
i dun lose anything.
k lah..
nina signin off...
"aku adalah aku",
nina.
became tha mentor fer tha day..
never attend yesterday's one cos i was really sick.
it was quite boring..cos i wasn't in tha mood to be happy.
yeha.
heex.
aniwae..
today..many stories was about nizam.again.
ya...after the mentoring thing that ended at like 12..
we went to chill at tha clubroom..
talked with khai and kamal..and nut.
about nizam.and about guys.
yeah..they did give me advices.
thanks to them.
after that..we went to causewaypoint to break fast at long john's silver..
they made me happy.
ya..on the outside yes i am happy.
but not on the inside..
we went jalan2 at bazar raye ..
faris (ex nvss) werking there..
jual burger...hehe!
ok..
all the way iw as talking bout nizam and my relationship with him..
we went honme at about 9..
went home with kamal..
khai and nut went their own ways..
different busses..
k so..anyway..
kamal accompanied me till i board tha 806 bus..
upon reaching home..i quickly switched on tha.miss it so many.
one whole day tak on sei.
eheh!
except fer this morning lah..after sahur..
ya..talked to wak(mecha)yang vespa hijau tu..idah..and caca..
talked to wak and yes..he gave me a very good advice..
he asked me why i liked nizam so much..wats so good bout him..
then i say he respect my parents..then he sad, ya..itu memang biase..but the most omportant thing is to see his surroundings at home..meaning..how is he at home..does he respect his own folks before he respect other's..
yeah..i admit..sumtimes he's quite rude to his mum..i cant deny that.
but nemy..that's he and his family's problem..
i cant say aniting..
k..ya btw..
idah toldme sumthing that really shocked me..
it make me really feel CHEATED!
wow!! all this 7 months ++ is like ..haiz..dunno how to say..
so means..watever he did fer me sumer tak ikhlas.rabaq sei..
u nape buat i gini u..
kenpae main2 kan i...?
ape sasalh i..?
u sholdnt have accepted me as a girlfriend dat day..030305.
u make me lke a fool...
oh ya..idah told me that he actuallyalready loiked zahrah fer like 2 years oredi..
astrghfirullahhalazim..
ape nie.
ape sume nie.?
ape maksudnyer..??
u buat i gini..u ingat u tak kene baleq ke mcm gini..?
u will feel how i felt ok nizam..
but i hope u wont.
nina tak nak u hidup mcm i..
ya..now i like dun have he trust in guys..
except fer my dad of course..
i have this feeling taht he wont come back to me..
not anymore..
biarlah..
i dun lose anithing in losing him anywayy..it wasnt me who left him..it's alright..
i must always remember have my family will always love me..
and my friends too.
dunno what else to say..
right now..my feelings towards guys is no more..
i still love him.
but kalau dah dgr mcm2 cerite pasal de..
mcm benci de pun ade..
Eheh!
gasak u lah nizam..its fine wit me..
i cume tak nak u main2 kan hati perempuan lain aje.
i du wan them to feel the way i felt.
appreciate those ppl who love you.
ok dear?
will always remember u..
my love fer a guy fer 3 years will always be in my mind..
i hope i'll recover
as soon as possible..
i dowan my heart to keep loving someone who doesnt appreciate my love.
yes that's it.
though it'd take me quite a little long time to heal my broken heart..
i'll always remiond myself that i can live on my own withot u by my side.
sepanjang perhubungan kite pun selame nie..
bile nina fikir2 baleq..
ya its true..
u selalu kutuk2 i..
tak penah nak accept me fer who i am..
ape yang u tunjukkan i selame hanyalah kepura-puraan semate2..
just to make me smile.
but i tak akan lupe kan perhubungan kite ini.
i thank u fer the love that u showered me with.
hati yang u lukai tidak akan i lupekan.
this relationship.and my past relationship have taught me something..
something which is so much.
it makes me more mature..
i dun lose anything.
k lah..
nina signin off...
"aku adalah aku",
nina.
lets say goodbye 11:45 PM
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